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Saturday, November 17, 2012

Assessment- or Evaluation?

Hey hey,
So it is rather late, but I could not sleep- thinking about a couple things. So I figured, if you can't sleep you should write.
Firstly I had my assessment on Wednesday, and I asked the lady supervising (whose job I may be taking), "Is this an assessment or an evaluation?". Her answer was: "What is the difference?" That is when I realized I am highly qualified for her job. ASSESSMENT VERSUS EVALUATION- Take it away Bachelor of Education.
FYI- it was not an assessment- it was an evaluation. 
But for the sake of argument we can continue calling it an assessment.

Anyways, despite my horrible grammar/English comprehension she began to mark my English component as I worked on my math assessment (there was no good in that). And she, in the middle of my test, asked "are you an English Major?". I quickly commented, no, and I often struggle with grammar and English skills. She seemed shocked, and when I asked her, she said I scored higher in English then an English major she had in previous to do the same assessment. That's when I was shocked, but quickly hid it with amusement. Perhaps, university did teach me a thing or two? Perhaps several.
The math was another story; I made up several answers- I guessed to see if they seemed right, or close enough. I had said in my interview that I doubt I could pass math beyond grade 9 at my current, state and they said they wouldn't need me to teach math, but that it was still a required part of the horrid assessment. I frankly did not even understand half the questions- which was slightly amusing as well.
Anyways, I must of done all right, considering they are booking me for a final interview (hurrah!).

So, there is something kinda bugging me. This summer I worked a variety of jobs, only one I really loved- and I really screwed up. I was working at a shoe store, that many of you have heard of, and I loved my job- and I was naturally good at it. Then, they changed their rules of amount of full timers per  money earned; therefore demoting our entire store to part-time.



Therefore, I had to get a second job. So I did, I got a job at a famous Canadian Coffee and Bakery shop. I made it well known that I had no intention quitting the job I love for them, and wanted the schedules to work together. That worked for about 4 weeks. By then, that coffee shop, that was 24 hours, with "flexible" hours, offered me an ultimatum either quit there or quit the job I love. Feeling, under pressure for coming up with the money difference, I made my first mistake, and that was to commence working night shift at the coffee shop and days at the shoe store. Meaning, I no longer slept. Meaning, I became a zombie. After 3 weeks of night shift, I couldn't do it any more, and I made another exhausted decision - to quit the job I love and work days at the coffee shop. This was mistake number too. They never put me back on days. And I don't even know how many times I requested it, and begged them. Then, it got worse. I had some of the lovely ladies (not managers, not supervisors) yelling at me- about forgetting to put something out (like maple flakes) at 5 am. I was being humiliated by other staff members. I was being insulted, and constantly belittled. My managers and supervisors did nothing. The day before I quit, I was already serving 3 "guests" at once, and I had a lady, who was training people for another store, yell at me about doing more at once. And I told her, I cannot do anything else. I am doing the best I can. I cannot serve Ice cream, and two counters and drive through by myself. She proceeded to call me incompetent- in front of the guest I was serving at that moment. In retrospect, I should have quit then, I should have just walked out. But instead, I finished serving the guest, and allowed her to continue to humiliate me. I knew it was a matter of time before I either cried publicly (again) or quit. The next day I handed in my uniform and gave them no notice. Don't get me wrong, many of the franchises to work for are a lot better, and treat you with respect (like a person, not a machine), but this one was so not okay. And, I didn't mind the job itself, it was the people I worked with- they humiliated, insulted, and belittled on a regular basis. And the only person who didn't do that, wasn't allowed to work with me, because we knew each other outside of work. However, thats the long story, the short story is- I wanted to write them a letter, to management, to human resources, and to the owner, but I never did. Too much aggression? Perhaps? Too late? Somewhat. Worried about the consequences? Absolutely. I hate saying bad things about others, (for the most part)... but if I was treated like that, who else was? I lost a great job for this company, and got treated like garbage for it. It is unbelievable the crap you can put yourself through, and let others get away with treating you like crap. Maybe I should write that letter still, so I can say No it wasn't okay, and you guys need to know that it wasn't.
Maybe the letter won't even be acknowledged. Who knows. Perhaps, that should be my next writing project.

And, another sad part of this is, I use to be a huge fan of this coffee shop, it was close to home, but now I cringe at the thought of entering any of them- especially this one. Because, I am reunited with the feelings of humiliation.

I should also give credit where credit is due; I had one manager who worked there, (often we did not work together), who regularly took me away from the others, told me I was doing a good job, and did what she could to help me out. She treated me like a person, and it made me respect her all the more. When I do go in there now- I look for her- because she is one of the few worth it.

I don't want anyone to be thinking: BOYCOTT THIS PRODUCT, no, I don't think that helps any workers, and you would all screw me over. But, watch how the person making your food, or serving your coffee is being treated- if they aren't being treated well, speak up- because management doesn't give a shit about those employees. But they have that new "make it right" policy, so that the customer is always happy. A happy employee = a happy customer.

Anyways, perhaps I should still write this letter. The longer I put it off the less meaningful it will be... but I just feel that they need to know; and that they should change and grow. Imagine how many kids in school work there, and get treated that way (like crap?). It is not right and I hope that company does make room for change- because you need to treat your employees (those who do the hard labour) better then that- and treat them like people not little machines (PEOPLE!!!!)


Thursday, November 8, 2012

Good things all at once...

So it has been a couple days since you have heard from me but as I told you- I have been in the process of negotiating for a house- and guess what... I am a very proud home owner. The house is beautiful. Move in day is set for December 14th! Yay 5 weeks! So in honour of my good news- I must share some hilarious photos.

 I plan on it..

I hope this isn't us...

Second set of good news; I had an interview on Wednesday (same day we bought the house)... and apparently it went really well, because I got a second interview on the spot. I also have to complete an evaluation but this is a step in the right direction! woo hoo.. teaching adults may be coming through! 
Soon I will be hearing students complain (I can only hope)!


And more good news- AMERICAN's aren't as dumb as they look (ok, yes offensive joke... blah blah blah). Well, they aren't except for Texas, and Donald Trump.  Congratulations Donald Trump on making an ass of yourself.... but much more importantly- OBAMA! 4 more years. Thank God, *yes God doesn't have to be republican!* women's right may continued to be protected by you. 


I don't know if you read the twitter's- but if you haven't... here is a saved copy of them... because Mr. Trump here intelligently decided he was going to write whatever he wanted in his twitter journal- where no one would ever find it. Luckily many smart people saved his tweets, before he deleted them; while I did see them before he deleted them I was not one of the smart people... but here you go... eat your heart out....


I wondered as I read these- he must be flexible, as he managed to put his foot in his mouth and his head in his ass all at the same time! 

...said Donald Trump's toupee! 


I know its kinda a short post- but its hilarious. At least I have been laughing at myself - even if you aren't laughing at all. 

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

bored and observing

I'm sitting in my placement "observing" and it is hilarious. I hate observing cause I notice all the things that my AT doesn't notice. and I just let it continue because I don't want to help!
So I get my evaluation from my FA tomorrow; a little nervous about it; but it is ok!
My AT has talked about boobs, alcohol, and murder in like 5 minutes, without any sort of expression of emotion. I totally cannot do that. (Law class)

I get to teach about defences for my FA tomorrow; its going to be about intoxication, mental states, automatism specifically. I really hope it goes well! (NERVES!)

I asked my students to not brig cell phones to the class; cause I WILL COLLECT THEM! EEK! TAKING A STAND!
I'm the sort of teacher who the students love cause I am pretty lenient; but it seems like other teachers don't like it.

I was totally fine about being evaluated tomorrow until this morning; I have the lesson done and what not; I am just nervous as all hell!

breathe breathe breathe breathe breathe breathe breathe breathe breathe

I will be ok.

I'm just a freak- with a bit of anxiety; where is my puffer?

I LOVE THESE KIDS; THESE KIDS LOVE ME- nothing to worry about... EEEE GAHHHD


ok; on a better note; I get to teach the Manhattan project today- fun? Looking at the atomic bomb and such. And it is awesome; because we are watching a movie and they have questions (that they submit to me at the end of class) and have homework; not much me teaching MWAHAHAH

me= evil

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{}^.^{} <-- Do you see the monkey
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...... And this is why I hate observing

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Outside the Box with a Trickster

What is creativity? This was a huge debate within my section today.
What did some of my colleagues say? Well some felt that it was difficult, some felt that is was not necessary, and some felt that it is something you do in higher order thinker. Something that a few strongly argued on is that creativity is simply "thinking outside the box". I think it is limiting- creative is something I cannot define. My creativity is different then yours and I think how a teacher sees creativity is going to differ.
But, the question the scares me is the value of creativity. I strongly value creativity in my students. I want them to show me what they can do- and I don't want to tell them what they are going to do. I can say write me a story but I don't want to ever read the same story 20 times!
It was ironic however, that with 5 of us being in the Imagination and Creativity we didn't really say anything. Obviously creativity is important. Obviously imagination is something to be desired. But that is my opinion.
I feel like we are having an issue between teachers. Everyone thinks they are right. No one seems to respect each others opinion. I have to respect my colleague. John* doesn't want to highlight creativity and imagination in his science class. Well it is not my job to tell him he is wrong. Because he could be right within science. But within my history class I plan on tackling imagination and creativity. I want to be respected for that too. It is so frustrating that teachers are not respecting each other. We are in this profession for a reason- because we want to be good teachers. However being a good teacher will be different for each of us. And I hope our section can learn to bond and respect each others differences because that is the only way for us to grow as teachers and colleagues.

Anyways, today in my ICE class we had a guest speaker. Who used trickster tales to teach us about assessment in creative classrooms. Well, all I could think of was Supernatural. Dean (Jensen Ackles) is super beautiful. So I was obviously distracted with images of beauty.

And then I ate some Rolo's. delicious.